i thought we said goodbye last night - but here you are with the dawn....
oh matty-tilda. my sweet gray kitty. i didn't think it possible for something to worm it's way so deeply into my heart in such a short time.
my head flutters with what if's. what if we didn't let you out [but to deny you the grass and the garden and playing with fluffy jones seems so wrong], what if you had just stayed closer to home, what if the car came 10 seconds later.... and what if we never found you [thank you to whoever put her on the side of the road].
last night D said he dreamed of you :: oh looks there's matilda :: i can only pray that's your way of telling us you are ok. yesterday when i had the vision of you and my grandpa i didn't want to think it was true. but you can only fight what you know {the truth} for so long.
oh gray kitty i will miss you sleeping under my chin :: your joy at my waking up in the morning :: your rubbing into garbo :: your rubbing into the carpet with glee :: your chasing bottlecaps around the house :: so many things i can't possibly list. you were a rare gem my sweet.
you were {and are} my little shadow. i'm so glad that i told you everyday how much i loved you [oddly enough i had a very specific ritual with you to do this]. i had hoped you would be here for my 40th birthday... i can only hope that you are romping with kitty, moe, jake, satchell, pachuco.... i know i will see you in my dreams. i am so grateful that you came into my life. even if it was ever so brief.
friends... i can't imagine posting or reading or doing much of anything on the internet for a while and i didn't want you to think i had disappeared. many of you have become so important to me and so i felt you should know. be well. hug and pet those you love.
oh matty-tilda. my sweet gray kitty. i didn't think it possible for something to worm it's way so deeply into my heart in such a short time.
my head flutters with what if's. what if we didn't let you out [but to deny you the grass and the garden and playing with fluffy jones seems so wrong], what if you had just stayed closer to home, what if the car came 10 seconds later.... and what if we never found you [thank you to whoever put her on the side of the road].
last night D said he dreamed of you :: oh looks there's matilda :: i can only pray that's your way of telling us you are ok. yesterday when i had the vision of you and my grandpa i didn't want to think it was true. but you can only fight what you know {the truth} for so long.
oh gray kitty i will miss you sleeping under my chin :: your joy at my waking up in the morning :: your rubbing into garbo :: your rubbing into the carpet with glee :: your chasing bottlecaps around the house :: so many things i can't possibly list. you were a rare gem my sweet.
you were {and are} my little shadow. i'm so glad that i told you everyday how much i loved you [oddly enough i had a very specific ritual with you to do this]. i had hoped you would be here for my 40th birthday... i can only hope that you are romping with kitty, moe, jake, satchell, pachuco.... i know i will see you in my dreams. i am so grateful that you came into my life. even if it was ever so brief.
friends... i can't imagine posting or reading or doing much of anything on the internet for a while and i didn't want you to think i had disappeared. many of you have become so important to me and so i felt you should know. be well. hug and pet those you love.
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